Ice-age heat wave, can't complain.
If the world's at large, why should I remain?
Walked away to another plan.
Gonna find another place, maybe one I can stand.

I move on to another day,
to a whole new town with a whole new way.
Went to the porch to have a thought.
Got to the door and again, I couldn't stop.

You don't know where and you don't know when.
But you still got your words and you got your friends.
Walk along to another day.
Work a little harder, work another way.

Well uh-uh baby I ain't got no plan.
We'll float on maybe would you understand?
Gonna float on maybe would you understand?
Well float on maybe would you understand?
...
The moths beat themselves to death against the lights.
Adding their breeze to the summer nights.
Outside, water like air was great.
I didn't know what I had that day.
Walk a little farther to another plan.
You said that you did, but you didn't understand.



I know that starting over is not what life's about.
But my thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth.
My thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth.
My thoughts were so loud.



---world at large
modest mouse

i just came back from a trip to Istanbul for an ISTA (theater) festival. i had a lottt of fun

i met a girl whos is exactlyy like me only turkish

so anyways lifes been good lately. buh i hav school tomorrow we just came home like an hour ago- no i havnt done any work this weekend xD

Koninginnendag is sooon!!

im not really sure what this whole life things about.

alot of life-shattering things have all just happend at once, but i havnt really reacted the way people do in the movies.

am i coping?
am i in denial?

they say theres nothing like death to wake you up and show you that youre mortal.

how about a close friend whos suicidal and a 95% sure move to half way across the world for me? not to mention im failing 3 classes and all the stress and uncirtanty of everything keeps giving me these panic attacks.

so im mortal apparently. really mortal.

whatever the hell that even means.

~

irony is kind of a bitch.

and it really does suck when you finally feel what all those songs mean.

a week after i started dating this amazing guy, im told that im moving. i am also told that its 95% sure, so im not allowed to tell anyone. [ha fuck that. like YOUVE ever been in my position]. but i know its definet. i can tell they want to go.

about the suicidal thing. i wont go into that. i will say though that the attempt failed, and if anyone in your life ever hints at it to you, dont be a fucking idiot and believe this person. dont stay in your happy little world of denial and do something about it.



for some reason, i dont feel like ripping my hair out and freaking out at all this. im really calm. i understand it all, but its... ok? i dont think it should be. but i am. i just have to remember to breathe sometimes.


its raining outside. how cliche.

x

i cant believe its already xmas! but im glad

im goin to places in africa for xmas
goin to Tanzenia, Kenya, and Zanzebar
should b cool
and rly hot (yesss christmas tan)
while meanwhile here its below 0 outside, but not snowing...
xx
merry chistmas to all
and too all a good night
and a happy new year too

Rules...
1. You must answer all questions and truthfully.
2. You must tag 5 people (or more)...

1. Add up the price of the clothes you are wearing.
1) um holister shirt and stretchy-running-capris probly like 30$
2) understuff i guess like 5$
3) not wearing shoes..
total: 35

2. Add up the pageviews of all the accounts you own.
wat the hell no im too lazy

3. What have you eaten today?
eating cereal now, i had 2 chocolate covered rasins too

4. Write the last thing you heard?
my mom scraping a bowl X(
now the waters running
and my dogs barking

5. List 5 things you see next to you.

1) creal bowl n spoon
2) the mouse
3) cereal box
4) millions of random papers (ges wer not so organized today)
5) a camera
6. ooo my ipod


7. One fun thing that’s happened to you today?
i woke up thinking i was gonna watch the 2nd season of Heroes today (but i got grounded from that, dangit)

8. Put your music player on shuffle. Click the skip/next song button 5 times. What’s playing now?
"i saw it on your keyboard" - Hellogoodbye
whats that song about anyways? i love hellogoodbye.

wow im bored. i havnt taken a survey thing since like mid-last yr
ok im gonna clean my room so i can watch HEROES and the new office episode